It’s the 21st of November, and this morning, I drew the Queen of Cups.

I’m feeling much more myself—whoever she is, haha! The last couple of days, especially since the big graduation and ‘being with my boys’ day, have been transformative. 

I’m always curious about how the brain works. We appreciate that we have different moods, but do these account for actually feeling like a different personality or person?

I think it’s plausible that a low mood can be shifted by one great day, one great event. What’s the mechanism though? Is it serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin? The reduction in stress hormones, like cortisol? Add to that the good cognitive cogs and wheels that seem to get stuck when feeling down. A happy event is like a good dose of oil in the brain machine; it shifts the perspective.

Clarity and Caution

I’m feeling very positive right now. I’m back on top of quashing out some fears as they appear. I’ve refound my magic wand—it hadn’t gone very far, but far enough to have made me lose grip on perspective.

I don’t know how long I’m going to have a clear brain for; fibro fog is an unpredictable scallywag. But today, I have a very clear mind. I also have retained the learning from the lessons recently about overdoing things. So, I’ll use my clarity today wisely, carefully, sparingly. Quality over quantity.

Winter’s Beauty and Blessings

I’m watching the sky change from the darkest midnight blue. It was a new moon, so the sky was incredibly dark. Now, there’s a pink and lilac tinge on the horizon where the sky meets the water of the Channel. This is fading into an ombre of all the blues. The bare branches of a tree should look skeletal, but instead, I’m seeing hope. They stand proud, capillary-like, eager to catch whatever sunshine the day may bring.

A dozen or so corvids (magpies, I think) just flew past, silhouetted against this skyscape. How majestic they looked! I wonder where they are off to, what knowledge do they have that sends them off on their early errand. Summer is the best time for watching the garden and beyond waking up, but a crisp, clear, cold winter morning has much beauty and wonder to offer.

The blessings, the blessings, the blessings—so much to be grateful for. Is that what the Queen of Cups is ruminating on? The beauty of nature?

The Dreamer’s Quest

It’s deeper than that though. I’m having a recurring thought of late that my soul mate is not far away. He’s a sensitive, creative, artistic soul. We will understand each other instinctively, allow each other space to grow individually, and support each other to thrive together. Oh yes, she’s a dreamy one, this Queen of Cups.

She needs someone who can love generously, wisely, with empathy and respect—equally to themselves and the partnership. She’s full of emotion and not afraid to show it, aware of her feelings and how that affects others.

Okay, tingles with my card today! It’s more than okay to dream. And how does anything become reality if we don’t dream it first? Make wishes, plans, manifest—however you want to describe it, it’s the same thing. Everything starts with an idea, a kernel, a nugget, a thought.

Do I dare to dream? Why, yes, I do. I see you. I want you. I’m ready for you. You’ll need to be a very special kind of person, a one-off—just like me.

What do my dear wise daily tarot authors have to say?

Author	Key Message
Liz Dean	The ideal partner, intuition, and perception are highlighted. Time to take note of your dreams.
Sarah Bartlet	Unconditional love, emotional harmony. Know what it feels like to feel. You will draw like-minded souls to you (or just the one, please, Sarah!).
Tina Gong	Emotional, loving, tender, gentle, nurturing, supportive, creative.

Woohoo! Is there anybody out there? I’m coming to look for you.