Tuning into the Internal Jukebox
23rd of October and I have drawn the page of Cups. My internal infernal jukebox (There’s a post about that here (The Infernal Internal Jukebox: My Constant Companion) has been playing Sympathy for the Devil since I woke up.
Navigating the Waters: From Theory to Practice with the Page of Cups
Cups equals water, emotions, sensuality I think and there’s a big wave on this card. A young person or naive adult is talking to a fish out of water.
They look surprised or enquiring. They’re also wearing a lovely heart brooch. I don’t know if that means anything. Probably does, because tarot cards are filled with symbols.
I have thoughts straight away. I am feeling like a fish out of water.
Planning a business in the theoretical stage, even though it was all new to me, I could navigate my way around slowly tentatively at my own pace. The leap from theory to practice, that’s a different matter entirely. I’m still here though. I haven’t had a lasting meltdown, flounced off, screaming “ I can’t do this!” armed with a thousand ready-made, completely feasible and logical, to me, excuses.
I haven’t spiralled into endless days in bed, unable to face the world. No, I’m persevering, adjusting, accepting, re-evaluating, moving my own goal posts, shifting my focus. I’m doing great actually. Looking at it like that, seeing the positives, it’s the only way to go.
The internal infernal jukebox has just changed to Bittersweet Symphony. From sympathy to symphony. That’s interesting. And yes, Mr. Ashcroft, I am a million different people from one day to the next and they’re all me!
The Perils and Promises of Fast Thinking
I’m possibly a bit hyper today. Awareness of this is great. It means if I can keep hold of that knowledge consciously and not make any, or at least not act on, any daft decisions. I’ll not go shopping, even online, I won’t break my diet, I definitely won’t have any alcohol. I rarely do these days and by rarely I mean more than once a month, often even longer than that. I won’t tinker with the website. I won’t do anything that has the potential to get broken.
Heeding the Tarot’s Counsel
Armed with that. What will I do today? Let’s see what the books suggest about the page of Cups.
Liz Dean: Sociable intuitive spirit who loves good company and the good life. Reassurance after a spell of emotional insecurity.
Sarah Bartlett: Showing your feelings, trusting in your intuition, creative ideas, daydreaming.
Tina Gong. A child, shy, idealist, naive, sensitive dreamer, imaginative, Create playfully. Trust your inner voice. Be open to surprises.
I can roll with that. I’ll ignore the romance stuff that’s also featured on this card. Move on to that another time, but suffice to say, I’m not very open. I am open to the thought of romance but not the energy required to find it.
I can definitely be playful and creative today, maybe even do some watercolour or collage. Surprises. Hmm, in this mood, that might spell danger! My intuition is telling me to fight risk-taking tendencies today. I’m listening to that right there, my own sound advice.
I’m thinking fast and writing fast, which is sometimes great, and much rarer these days. Herald’s being able to get loads done with the caveat that it doesn’t always get done to a very good standard. Perfection can be the enemy of progress but progress, for the sake of progress ?
When I’m running fast, like today, that can often just equal sloppiness.
Time to slow down and do some breathing and meditation.