17/10/25 and I have drawn the Six of Swords. Swords are the suit of air. For the acronym of SWORDS, I can remember the first two letters: Swift and, possibly, Willpower for the W. I can’t think of anything for the O, R, or D right now.
The image depicts a figure heading towards somewhere with purpose, but rocks are visible, which could indicate trouble just below the surface. However, dry land is in sight, and the paddle in the water suggests fairly fast-paced movement.
Reverse, or keep going?
The feeling I have today is that I want to get a lot done, but I feel like I’m paddling and paddling and getting nowhere very fast, unlike the figure in the image. So, maybe I should be looking at a reverse interpretation today. I start off with my cards all in an upright position, after their full moon bath. I usually look at the card as a whole rather than using the traditional method of shuffling where some cards are intentionally reversed or upside down. Mine are always the same way up, and I look at the card as a whole. I can usually gauge whether it’s an upright or a reverse, and sometimes it’s a bit of both.
Quack Quack
My thoughts for today are that I’ve taken on a lot. I knew that, and I keep telling myself it’s going to be alright. And of course, it will be. I have a sense that maybe I should stop being public for a month or so with the website and my socials until I have all my ducks in a row again. Should I keep going and get bits done bit by bit, or take another month without an active website and active socials while I get to a place where I can implement my social media calendar and have my website how I want it to look? Or should I just keep going?
Beginning to See the Light(house)
I didn’t know how this was going to feel; it’s much more tiring than I had anticipated. I sat by my light box yesterday, which I’ve been forgetting to do. I sat an awful lot yesterday, being mainly unproductive. I won’t do that today. It will probably be a thinking kind of day today, going over all my notes.
I’d really like to pull together some crochet content. I have lots to draw upon and have been saving up bits and pieces for so long. I had thought myself well prepared, but when it comes to polishing these little tidbits into something I’m happy to publish, and in the format that’s right for the platform, it all falls apart. I feel that imposter syndrome is winning, but not completely. I do believe in myself. I can see what I need to do, which brings me back to the question: Do I plough on, or paddle on, or stop? Apply the brakes, lower the anchor, and appraise, fix, reboot.
Let’s see what inspiration I can draw from the book interpretations.
| Source | Interpretation (Upright) | Interpretation (Reversed) |
|---|---|---|
| Liz Dean | Peace of mind after trouble, a chance to breathe again and renew, relax, and return with energy and enthusiasm. | You cannot rest now. |
| Sarah Bartlett | If you feel you are in troubled waters right now, you are about to move into calmer ones. You are not exactly exuberant and you are a little wary; you may be feeling apathetic and lost. | |
| Tina Gong | Learn from your emotions. Don’t let your past define you. | Make peace with uncertainty and embrace discomfort. |
Ship Ahoy
Well, these are snippets, and reading through the whole interpretations, upright and reversed, has buoyed me. This is why I journal with tarot cards – it helps me clarify my thoughts. It’s okay to feel a little defeated, but I mustn’t lose sight of the bigger picture. Time to stay calm, just tread gently in shallow water, see the big sea awaiting, and imagine myself swimming in it. How exciting the future is! Contrast today from a year ago and then think of what the picture could be in a year’s time – now we’re talking.
A Smooth Sea Never made a Skilled Sailor
I looked that one up, just underneath it was
“Life has a way of testing our anchors… No matter the force of the wind, the strength of the tide, or the height of the waves, they will hold”.
And there’s more!
“Rowing harder doesn’t help if the boat is headed in the wrong direction” “When you can’t change the direction of the wind, adjust your sail”.
Making mistakes is an inevitable part of life, and it’s how I respond to those mistakes that matters, which means not fixating on the mistakes themselves, but on fixing them. I can improve my website and have it how I want it. I had no clear idea of what I wanted to create, and in fact, a newer vision started to emerge once the actual building of the website had started. This is definitely fixable.
I’m not a natural at social media, and I’m not going to become a natural overnight. I’m reminded of the powerful phrase, “It takes a lot of hard work to be this lucky.” Is that right? Something like that, anyway. I can remind myself that I don’t operate at full capacity, or anything near. So, I’ll reduce my expectations by the same ratio and see my efforts by the same ratio, and actually, I’m doing really well.
And all of that before the sun is even up.