A Wistful Mood and a Big Life Update
Today, I feel a sense of relief. A couple of evenings ago, I composed a significant life update on my personal Facebook account. I was incredibly nervous about how it would be received, a classic case of overthinking. Thankfully, the responses were largely positive. While it’s impossible to gauge everyone’s reaction, the experience took its toll. Mentally and physically, I struggled yesterday, needing downtime to recover from the adrenaline and anxiety.
The light from the sun can be seen from behind the clouds. Does that mean brighter days are coming? The figure in the card looks out to sea, a wand in hand, as ships approach. I’ve always wondered about the symbolism of the ships – are they arriving or departing? It often depends on my own emotional state when I draw this card.
I’m proud of myself for not descending into a dark place. It’s a testament to the tools I’m developing into habits – walks, mindful breathing, and stopping spiralling thoughts. They’re not quite automatic yet, but they’re definitely habits in the making. It was a win; I survived the day.
Ships Coming In, or Going Out?
There’s a positive feeling today, a sense of “ships coming sailing in.” The sun isn’t fully out, but its rays are visible behind the clouds. Yet, the imagery of ships is a bit muddled in my mind. “Don’t count your chickens until they’re hatched,” “missing the boat,” “all my boats have come into roost at once” – my brain is a bit wonky this morning!
I will consciously aim to avoid being overly ambitious today. I’ll focus on familiar tasks and avoid anything requiring new or forgotten skills. I plan to take my time and find pleasure in what I do.
The Reversed Interpretation Rings True
Liz Dean says the Three of Wands signifies a time of personal gain and reward when you let others see what motivates you through your work, inspiring opportunities for self-expression. However, I think the reversed advice resonates more strongly with me today: a breakdown in communication, inability to express ideas, frustrating delays, and a need to slow my pace. Decluttering my thinking and simplifying plans until this influence shifts feels right. Not every day can be an “upright” day.
Tina Gong’s interpretation also hits the nail on the head: “Change your expectations, learn from missteps. Despite best efforts, plans don’t always come to fruition. The work may have been done but for whatever reason, obstacles, frustrations, disappointments and delays are to be expected. First steps are proven to be overwhelming. Perhaps, you weren’t ready for all the toils, sacrifices and challenges and you may have to revise your ideas.”
I can certainly relate to that and am already taking steps to revise my plans. I’m not ready to throw in the towel, not by a long shot. I’m prepared to build in extra time and seek external support and resources. A mentor, which I hope to secure soon, would be incredibly welcome and timely.
It’s not all reversed, though. “Daring to want something can be the first step to making it come true.” That makes much more sense.
A Footnote on Social Media Anxiety
Finally, a quick note on the anxiety I experienced over posting to Facebook. I mentioned it to a friend, and she completely understood. Like me, she’s more of a “lurker” than a “poster.” While it’s nice to see what others are up to, using Facebook often comes with a significant amount of anxiety, and I’m still trying to understand why.
No post tomorrow as I’m away visiting family.